no body is listening

No one listens to what i said,it has never being heard or what so ever...
its like i'm no one in this world not even to my family...
my mom wont listen to my problems,she will just turn away when i try to express it all out but it fails to be heard...
my brother never respects me even though i'm the youngest well its juz between me and him thats all...
but still right,i need respect even though i'm the youngest i need respect...
but some how i'm no one to them...
my words shall never reach to their opened ears...
i'm used,beaten,blamed for no reason,scold without any explanation on why i've bein scolded and blured on what wrong i've done in my family well i won't even take it as my family but well i HAD a mom,dad, an older brother and me well thats called family right...{supposedly}
but now i'll take it as NOT a family cause it never will be any how...
its broken since when i was born...
my mom doesn't give me freedom, life,dignity, respect n fairness...
it must been very tough until now i just don't get it how i could survive until now...
wow, i'm a survivor but i was wrong apart of me has driven away...
i've never tasted the true freedom in my life...
well now im drinking alot...{alcahol}
it gives me pleasure,i enjoyed it...
well,maybe that was it to stand it...
its hard to be me...
the inner me has long gone and it shall not come back the way it was before,in me has died...
i've done alot of things but i wasn't appriciated especially from my mom and brother{well dad living seperately}....
when ever my brother did some lil patty chores my mom will praise him and give him a great comment like he's a king or a prince...
well i've done alot till i coulnd't list it all out...
well maybe my world and this whole entire world "I" "myself" doesn't exist anyway...
i'm no one,i'm useless,im just me,im a ghost,i shall be forgotten and never be remembered by anyone...
its just not fair even i've tried my best to do things even if it succeed well n done well,i'm no one....
i hate my life and this entire universe how wish i wasn't even born does not exist at all...HATE IT SO...........DAMN FREAKINGLY MUCH...................